Alcohol Fuelled Demons
AFF Newsletter on Substack #20
Welcome to the AFF Newsletter on Substack.
When I wrote about alcohol being a conduit for demons, I hadn't considered that maybe the demons I'd summoned during my drinking days had blocked me from being fully present in my own life.
Not just temporarily obstructed me when I drank but perhaps for the entirety of my drinking career.
I tweeted about alcohol making me an NPC (non-playable character) and how sobriety brought me back to life, well that's because (maybe) the demons had deliberately shut me out from this human experience.
Maybe they had control the whole time. Maybe I wasn't calling the shots.
Or maybe I had control at some points when I'd managed to wrestle myself back from their control during brief spells of sobriety.
The reason I raise this idea is that sobriety has suggested to me that maybe I wasn't in control for a major part of that period of my life.
I mean, I struggled with basic emotions, thoughts & actions.
I struggled to form relationships and grasp some of the basics of life.
It sometimes felt like I wasn't really here.
Thankfully, in sobriety, I've been able to regain control of my life.
My life is no longer run by alcohol and therefore, it is no longer controlled by the devil.
During this drying-out process of my recovery, I am beginning to discover who I am and what makes me tick.
It's an ongoing process but more is being revealed daily.
Incidentally, this is not me washing my hands of any responsibility for my actions during my drinking days, but rather me sharing a follow-up theory.
Let me know what you think.
Take care and have a great day,