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When my mum died, I drank LOADS to suppress the pain but the more I drank, the more painful life became.
Yes, there were fleeting moments of happiness but the pain ran deep.
Alcohol promised to relieve me of my heartache but only managed to deepen my wounds.
Don't expect alcohol to fix your heartbreak because the harsh truth is:
Alcohol won't bring back your dead loved ones... But it will destroy your memories of them living.
In my case, I just ended up flooding my mind with alcohol and as a result, I ended up losing* all of my most cherished memories of my mum.
If you've lost a loved one and you're thinking of drowning your sorrow and numbing your pain with booze, then I'd strongly advise against it.
It is counterproductive.
Although it might seem like the way to go because you've seen it on TV and in films - that portray it as the best way to overcome such heartbreak - the reality is that you will end up destroying your mind, memories and soul.
Although my sobriety hasn’t magically brought back those memories of my mum, I know that the further along in my recovery more things will come back to me.
It’s all part of the drying-out process.
I also know that in sobriety, I have the tools to act productively to safely dive back into my past and try to clear away all the wreckage my drinking caused.
By doing this, I will hopefully be able to unlock some of these memories, which I believe are still there - although hidden away, protected and buried deep within my mind.
*Sobriety is the key to unlocking the boxes of old memories and past joys, which seemed otherwise destroyed by alcohol.
Do you agree? Have you experienced the same as me?
Take care and have a great day,